Grief and painting.

      I've been gone, in a way....figuring out how things work without my mom. She died on November 9, in the hospital. Yet, it was sudden and without much build up. It was a death I'd been bracing for, on and off, over the years. Of course, the hit came just before the holidays of family gatherings, followed by the bleak solitude of a Wisconsin winter. There wasn't much to cushion the impact.

    I dipped in and out of my studio. It was disheveled from the last fall's final push of the art fair season. Everything was in heaps. My head could not handle the chaos and my body was too exhausted to restore its' order. I hurt. On top of that, we had my mom's apartment to empty. Painting had to wait for me to catch up.  I had tried to paint right away. I felt pressure to encapsulate my fresh grief. However, the attempt was overthought and lame. Then came the numbness. I'd push paint and water around on the surface of my paper but it was without passion, only something to prove that I was being productive.

    Slowly, I began noticing pockets of clarity and genuine patience. For me, winter is a time to paint bones, feathers, nests, eggs and other such static subjects. But these things seemed too stagnant. They just lay there. Then, I got a blue jay. A friend had given it to me, after they found it newly dead. It was so perfect and undamaged and this allowed me to position it any which way. Unlike the other things, this bird had vitality, depth and soul.... even though it was perfectly not at all alive. 

    Touching the blue jay, combing back its' feathers reminded me of my mom. I was gentle with it like I was with her.  My mom's body was her enemy and she fought it hard for a long time. I was one of her back ups. I caught her as she stumbled, helped guide her arms into and out of coats, scooped her off of the floor, hitched up her socks, her pants, fixed make up, buckled her in. I examined her arthritic knuckles to see if the swelling had gone up or down. My mother's hands made me nervous, because one day, they might be mine and they looked like trouble. I'd do the mental math to guess at how many more years of competent brush holding I have left on the timer. "Don't dawdle." I thought. "Get to work."

    The paintings are starting to come together again. It has been slow but productive. I am searching more, planning less, and letting things reveal themselves. I ask for patience and will not be posting much available work because I can't handle the pressure of making a product right now. 



Favorite Paintings of 2024

A year goes by too quickly to post all of my paintings as they come into being. I often frame, hang, and sell them with out giving them a spotlight on my website. So, here is a small collection of my personal favorites from 2024 that you may not have seen. They are sold and hopefully loved.
Tracing Back to the Roots

Nothing Stays the Same


Let it Begin

White Bass Run

The Last Bite











 

A Full and Furious Spring

Suspended Harvest

Spare Parts

 Art Fair Schedule, June-August 2024

Old Town Art Fair, Chicago IL, June 8-9
Lakefront Festival of the Arts, Milwaukee WI, June 14-16
Des Moines Arts Festival, Des Moines IA, June 28-30
Ann Arbor Street Art Fair, The Original, Ann Arbor MI, July 18-20
Charlevoix Waterfront Art Fair, Charlevoix MI, August 10



Snooooooowed In



 

The farm is layered in roughly three feet of snow. There's not much to do but eat, sleep, drink, eat, play records and paint. Under the snow, our 15 acres hold new prairie seeds that are sleeping too. Soon enough, they will start their next phase of life and I'll have a lot more to paint. New things are happening. This is the time when I start the new crop of large work. It can be a tedious time strung together by many a late night in the winter darkness.  So, reach out and see what's heating up. 
Happy New Year.

Last Show, Louisville Kentucky


 Okay, here it comes.... 

The last Art Fair of the Year! St. James in Louisville Kentucky, Oct 6-8. Booth 209.

When people ask how this year has been, I always pause. At first I think of all the loss we experienced during the first part of the year, and then I think of all the positive things that have happened as we try to move on. Then I realize that I have been taking too long to answer. The person inquiring gives me a look of concern and I have to decide how much to actually say. It's different every time.

But

Things are better. The shows have gone great. Everyone seems so supportive and I feel like I've grown especially close to some really extraordinary people in my life. The farm is coming along. The barns are now yellow and our first prairie plants have begun to flower. Also, I have buckets of sweet peppers coming out of the garden. Things are good.

Also, we are now on Instagram @paintingisdeadgallery

Moving On


 This spring has been like no other. Our poor family suffered a lot a pain after loosing a few key members who were the heart and steadying forces of the Fletcher Family. For weeks, we stopped painting to give ourselves completely to Andy's mom, who came home for hospice care. She passed on Easter and shortly after that we lost our brother in law in the most tragic way. Andy and I hadn't been in our studios for the longest time. But in late April, we returned to settle in and get ready for the summer show season. When you see us, we will look a little ragged, I am sure. So be patient and gentle - we are doing our best. 

For my part, I will have less work but it's been made with the same about of love, curiosity and strength.

Also, we are now on *sigh* Instagram under Painting Is Dead Gallery

We have a hectic Art Festival Schedule:

Old Town Art Fair, Chicago. June 10-11 website

Lakefront Festival of Art, Milwaukee WI. June 16-18 website

Des Moines Art Festival, Des Moines IA. June 23-25 website

Ann Arbor Street Art Fair, The Original, Ann Arbor MI. July 20-22 website

Charlevoix Waterfront Art Fair, Charlevoix MI. August 12 website

Plaza Art Fair, Kansas City, MO. Sept website

St. James Court Art Show, Louisville KY, Oct 6-8 website


Show at Tory Folliard Gallery Opens March 4th, Milwaukee Wisconsin

The last time we showed at Tory Folliard Gallery was in February of 2020. Then the world shut down, so it's awfully good to be back with a new perspective and new work. Andy Fletcher and I will have side by side solo shows. The opening is Saturday, March 4th, 1-4pm. Details below.





For Her Pleasure

Unfair Advantage



No Matter What the Consequences